barkonthetree

No, I told you I’m fine.

[He may have ruined his hand a bit by punching a tree, in an effort to avoid doing something even stupider.]

He said something else that bothered me. It was something like “if things keep going the way they are, he’ll die.” He meant you. That’s just it though, he didn’t say “I’ll kill him.” I know you think it’s none of my business, but it was odd. Do you know what he meant by that?

[That's unusual. It wasn't like Sesshomaru had a deep investment in keeping his heart beating outside of stifling it himself. Matthias must have misunderstood.]

then he'd miss the chance to kill me himself probably

i mean a lot of people want me dead but hes one of the worst

[Maybe Inuyasha is right, and it means nothing more. But last night, it had not felt that way, although he cannot pinpoint why. He tries to recall what Sesshomaru had said leading up to that strange statement. It was something about how Inuyasha wasn't strong enough, almost as if the reason the youkai was so furious is because he thought his brother should be stronger. Must be stronger.

The guy is about as easy to read as a smear of mud.]

What did you do to make so many call for your blood?

[Another thing they have in common. Although, those who wanted Matthias dead had gotten what they wished for lmao rip.]

[Oof.]

you mean aside from being born

[That funny little squiggle at the end he keeps using...Inuyasha thinks he understands now.]

?

[Nailed it.]

were collecting the fragments of a jewel that grants wishes and power

lots of youkai and evil humans want that power for their own and cause chaos so i take them down

[Aside from being born? A certain heaviness tugs at him as he recalls the boy he once was, and all the Grisha he had condemned for the crime of existing. Inuyasha has been on the other end of that hatred, the scorn one inherits along with their blood.]

I would rather be hated for doing the right thing than praised for doing the wrong thing.

What did you want to do with the jewel?

[He can’t help but be curious. The jewel itself sounds like something out of a story, but reality has turned out to be stranger than he ever anticipated.]

[They're like two sides of a horrible, horrible coin.]

other people can think what they want

if you do what has to be done then its for the best who cares what they say about you

[And hnnnnnngh

This is not territory he feels so comfortable with any longer. He'd have an answer at once had it been mere months ago. Before he'd gotten a taste of what being a full youkai was.

bliss and blood

Since then he's lived in unease. What was his goal now? Getting it out of the hands of dangerous sorts, there was that. But when the end came and the jewel lay pink and fat and round in his palm, what then? What would be the right choice? Would it still be fit to use? Would a pure wish really destroy the damn thing for good, or would they be tasked with guarding a shitty corruptible gem until they were slain for it?

There's no telling on any account. Especially not while he's stuck here.]

i wasnt much better than the rest to start i wanted power too

i dont know anymore

[He considers the words on the screen. He can even hear them in Inuyasha's voice. Yes, it was for the best. Back in Ketterdam's Church of Barter, it had stung to receive the jeers of the drüskelle delegation, to see the hatred burning cold in the eyes of his former comrades, but he had borne it without flinching. He knew then, as he knows now, that he made the right choice. He regrets only that the others couldn't see what he saw.

It sounds like Inuyasha has had to make difficult choices too. After his encounter with Sesshomaru, he can understand why the other boy would have desired more power. The power to rebuke, the power to prove wrong those who belittled him.]

I wouldn't know what to do with it either. Aside from keeping it away from those who would use it for evil purposes. It sounds like something that shouldn't be used lightly.

In stories, wishes never turn out how the wish maker expects.

it seems much the same so far

but thats because when most people use the fragments they use them greedily and they become corrupted

when pure-hearted holy people touch them they are cleansed which is why we need kagome

we think if we use a pure wish when its whole the jewel will disappear for good

A pure wish, like wishing for peace or something like that?

I hope that someday you can go back to complete the job with her.

[Why does his heart ache a little when he writes this? Is it because he himself can never go back, and Nina would have to fight without him?]

peace from what ?

i dont think anything can stop all humans from finding something stupid to kill each other over even the gods are sick of it

it has to be selfless though

[Once he'd wanted to be human. He could write that.

Inuyasha's finger hovers above the glass. Suspended. This device...there was too much ease to it. You could say things without thinking about what they really meant or how they affected people. With the body and voice and scent all removed, what was left to give you pause?

He doesn't want to be reminded of Kikyo. Doesn't want to be reminded of how he's failing his friends, either, but at least that's a simpler wound.]

they say time can be felt differntly between realms

do you think well go back to where we were before

[If not, then he's condemned them all to death. They were hunting for risen corpses in unfamiliar lands, seeking Naraku. Beset on all sides by strange threats. If Inuyasha vanished suddenly and months passed by?

He feels sick just imagining it. He holds his face for a moment, thumb pinching at his temple. In absolute privacy he can risk such a weak gesture.]

i hate sitting here powerless

You're probably right. There will always be someone who sees peace as an opportunity to take advantage of for their own gain. Then the peace is broken.

[There comes that sharp aching again, when Inuyasha asks about going back, and what might await at home.]

I don't know. I guess I haven't thought about it.

[He regrets writing that as soon as the message is out of his fingers. Who wouldn't wonder how times passes at home while they are here? Nobody but one who already knows he'll never go back.

It's not as if he gives no consideration to the passage of time. As the days have slipped by, he found himself wondering, Has Nina made it to Fjerda yet? Has she buried me? Have I been allowed to take root? And periodically now, How might she be doing today? Is she all right? How many days has it been since I left her?

But there was nothing left for him to do in that world, so what does it matter how long he remains in this one?

It's much easier to ponder on Inuyasha's dilemma.]

The people who come here are from all different worlds, and maybe different times too. Like how you and Kagome are from different times, but you were allowed to meet.

I don't understand it at all, but maybe if the Prismals can find a way to send you back to a specific world, why not a specific time too?

you havent ?

[That's something of a surprise. It's all Inuyasha could think about. Considering the situation they'd been left in he'd be a monster to drop the matter.

He feels like one, sometimes. He was trying his best but everything he did, everyone he talked to, even the books he tried to read at that thrice cursed library all pointed to a total lack of solutions. They were at the mercy of the Prismals, and only if these bozos were clever enough to find a fix for their own problems.

How lucky for them, that the Moonblessed should give up their past lives to power their stupid fucking city.]

it would be best if they did if i go back too late theyll all be dead

or if they drop me in the centuries between my time and hers id be stuck for good

i hope you get to go back to nina too

[It hurts. He's grateful that they are not having this conversation face to face, as he doesn't know if he could keep the truth out of his expression. He has burdened Inuyasha with a lot, but he wouldn't burden him with this.]

Yeah. I hope she will be all right.

[He does not want Nina to mourn forever. (Yet when he thinks about her looking up someday, and realizing there could be someone else—)]

You won't be stranded here forever, Inuyasha. Just hold on.

[Inuyasha would go home one day. Everyone he meets here would go home one day. Are there others like him? More who are supposed to be dead?

He needs to get away from this topic.]

I'm sorry that I lost my head with your brother. I don't want to cause trouble for you.

[There's not much choice but to hold on. He must return. There's no question of it. To think that he could lose months to this place...or years...

He doesn't want to think about it.

It's easier to face the problem at hand: Sesshomaru.]

he wont pursue you without reason

unless he thinks you have something he wants or youre getting in the way youll be okay if you stay away from him

and dont piss him off

ill take care of him

[Take care of him. Whether that meant fending him off indefinitely, or killing him outright. Matthias would prefer another way, but if Sesshomaru would not change his mind about killing his brother, disowning him with every cell of his being, then Inuyasha has little recourse.]

I'll stay away. But just so you know, if I ever saw you go against him, and you were in trouble, I don't think I can promise to turn my back.

No matter how big of an idiot that makes me.

youd be the biggest moron around but also a dead one so maybe just dont show up

leave it be and dont worry about it

I'm sorry, it's not in my nature.

So you had better stay safe.

NO YOU STAY SAFE

I told you to do it first.

SHUT UP AND LISTEN TO ME DAMN IT

I'm listening to you. And I'll use the information as I see fit.

youre being stupid on purpose now

Well I don't mean to encroach on your territory.

YOUR THE STUPID ONE HERE SHTU YOUR MOUTH

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